Call Me Mom.

I don't post personal stories too often just because I am actually VERY SHY! Once you get me talking I don't shut up, but for the most part small talk makes me so anxious I don't say anything haha. So here I am taking a chug of my cold coffee that I'm pretty sure I shouldn't be drinking anymore typing this up to share one of the hardest and best 30 hours of my life.  

I showed up for my induction on Monday March 12th, 2018.  Now I personally feel my body was just not ready to deliver yet but thats a whole other story.  I was super anxious to meet my little one and it's so crazy how they aren't even born yet but we start making so many plans for them.  By 4 o'clock the next day I had only dilated to a 3!  I was sooo uncomfortable and I wanted to cry every time anyone came in to check on me because they kept telling me that I was going to end up with a C Section and I did not want to do that.  The only person that was staying positive was my husband and a nurse named Judy.  JUDY IS MY GIRL FOR LIFE! She kept telling me she would get me to dilate and that I would be able to deliver naturally. My Dr. came to check on me around 7 PM and guess what! I was dilated to a 8! At that point I had been on max dosage of pitocin for so long I was exhausted and at that point she told me get some rest because you will need it to push.  I tried my hardest to sleep but between being anxious and contractions I was done.   They told me they would let me labor two more hours before doing a C section and I got nervous AGAIN.  Judy kept hope alive though and also my other God sent nurse Christina.  So the two hours came and went and they checked me again and no change.  At that point I just wanted to cry and gave up.  I succumbed to the idea of a C Section and even though its common I was just super nervous.  I don't know why they decided to let me labor for two more hours and at the end of those two hours they came in and let me know it was time to push! 

like Kevin Hart says "I wasn't ready!"

I felt like I had to push a bowling ball out of my body.  I didn't want to anymore, but every contraction came and I would feel the urge to push so I would.  My husband told me he could see his head the entire time until an hour passed and he said "Come on babe I see his head!"  With tears in my eyes I said "You've been saying that for an HOUR!" He responded with "I know, but this time we are for real!" E for effortLOL.  

One hour and 45 minutes later at 12:24 AM Victor Andrea De La Cruz slipped into this world on a Wednesday because obviously he did not want to be born on a Tuesday.  

I wish I could say it was rainbows and butterflies when he was placed on my chest.  The honest truth is that I had been on pitocin for so long my body was not contracting to stop the bleeding so I was not with the program and it looked like a crime scene.  I was stabbed with medications in my legs to stop the bleeding and all of that caused me to start vomiting right after.  TRAUMATIC. I didn't get to hold him for long because I didn't want to throw up on him and the "Massage" they were giving my uterus was worse than the pushing.   

Everything else is a complete blur until we came home.  When I finally got him alone just us three in the home we have made I would cry of happiness.  He was beautiful and soooo tiny at almost 7 lbs when we brought him home.  A little human solely dependent on you not only for food, but for love and for life.  He has taught us a ton of PATIENCE, unconditional love, and I cannot wait to learn more from my son.

To my husband; I love you more than words because you are an amazing father and a professional diaper changer.  We are in this together through the exhaustion and all.

To my son: I have no freakin clue how to do this and I am sure I will at some point mess up, but I promise you I will do my best.  

To all the moms out there reading this: First of all HEEEEYYY! Second, I praise you for being a mom, an accountant, a chef, a counselor, a mediator, a nurse, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a friend, a hustler, a book reader, annoying nursery rhyme singer, and being on call 24/7.  You are all amazing and I am honored to join you all in this journey of motherhood with no freakin manual of how to do it haha.  Hopefully you guys don't judge my coming mishaps of being a first time mom.  lol cut every mom A TON OF slack.  

So here I am Dayna, wife, daughter, friend, photographer and now you can call me a MOM! 

Maybe I should get a fresh cup of coffee.

Dayna Renee